My Daughter died in my arms for 14 minutes

When my daughter was 10 weeks old, she died in my arms for 14 minutes. 
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I have seven children. When it was time to have her two-month inoculations, I piled the kids in the car and off we went. On our way home my tiny baby started swelling up. My 14-year-old daughter says from the middle row of seats that she was getting welts all over her neck and chin and she was starting to look like a bullfrog. I pulled over off the M7 to a spot, ripped her out of her seat and could see it was a full-blown anaphylactic reaction (I know this because I am allergic to bees).
 
I rang triple 0 who told me to get off at the nearest crossroad. I pulled up to a set of lights and got out of the car. My 14-year-old stayed in the car trying to calm her then five and seven-year-old siblings, who were screaming that their baby sister was dying because she was going blue.    
 
I held my baby in my arms waiting at the intersection for the ambulances that had been dispatched to me, as advised by the woman on the phone. Four sets of lights came and went, and still no sign of the ambos. My son was now standing on the median strip keeping a look out and looking to me for assurance, but I started to lose my ability to stay calm as she choked and stopped breathing. She was grey and limp in my arms. I was crying and screaming down the phone at the woman "she's not breathing, she's not breathing!". My daughters were screaming hysterically from the back of the car. Time moved so slowly. I couldn't see or hear anything, I was just standing there holding a limp, blue, 10-week-old baby. I knew I was unable to resuscitate her because it was an anaphylactic reaction, and I know it was because of the needle the doctor gave her. 
 
All of a sudden at the same time, two ambulances arrived from different directions as I stood there frozen, crying and holding my lifeless newborn baby. A paramedic jumped out and came running over to me, grabbed her and ran back to the ambulance cutting her clothes off as he went. Another paramedic came over and took my 14-year-old daughter to go with them, telling me they would be rushing her to the Children's hospital and I was to meet them there. 

I arrived there to see her being worked on as they were running out the back of the ambulance, my 14-year old’s face white with tears streaming down her cheeks. Thankfully, they were able to resuscitate her... and the agonising wait for her to respond to me began. It took what felt like forever, but she eventually did.   
 
It was some days before she was allowed home, but she was never the same again. She would scream all of the time and stared blankly at everything, constantly squirming like she was in pain. She was always sick. Between the ages of two and four she had 18 hospital admissions for tonsilitis, bronchitis and glandular fever, a multitude of anaphylactic reactions to various foods and drinks. She didn't talk, she just screamed - the screaming never stopped. When she started preschool she was diagnosed with autism, developmental delay and a handful of other things. She was deaf in her left ear and only had 20% hearing in her right. She has had two surgeries on her ears and has more lined up for this year as they are still declining. She has bad allergies to lots of different things and we are constantly in a variety of therapies for her.  
 
The most shocking part of this story is that she was vaccinated without my consent. I was working for this doctor at the time, and he just went ahead and gave it to her - catching me off guard. He went on to delete all the information on vaccinating her and denied it. What he has done is beyond immoral. 
 
Even knowing how she reacted, the doctors still want to vaccinate her, just at the vaccine centre at the Children's hospital just in case she has another reaction - I'm sorry, WHAT? After years and years of therapy, surgeries and rehabilitation you want me to give her more? That will not be happening to her or any of us! 💛

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